I'm such a horrible blogger. I was horrible at keeping a journal when I was a kid, so
I don't know why I thought this would be any different. Someone once told me, 'Don't blog because you have to, blog because you've got something to say.' - well, it certainly is safe for you to assume that I haven't had much to say! I've been meddling with recipes, working, schooling, and planning. And here I am. Closer to opening? A bit.
Lack of money has kept me from opening. I work out of my kitchen at home (I know, I know...bad girl), and I've been making cakes for friends at no profit. I just want to stay in love with baking while I search for funding. It's pretty discouraging, having to write plans and proposals over and over again to suit the program for which you're applying. And being lazy like me makes it a challenge, to say the least. But, a change in direction has made life easier for me. And now, I need less to get started. The goal seems closer, and feels more real. I'm terrified of change, but let's f**king do it!
It's been a year and a half since I started working in this industry. I've surrounded myself with people and situations that would prep me for the world I want to start a business in. I feel a little more prepared, a little more numb, a little more ready. I want to be able to do things my way. I'm obsessed, and it's almost funny how neurotic I've become. My only option now is to operate my own establishment. It really has to happen. Failure isn't an option. Oh, it's likely - but I've got to try.
A change in direction was what I needed. I figured out that I needed to simplify, to start somewhere. After that? Money. It's hard to come by. I know of no mysterious benefactors, and I have no rich friends (smile). But I'll make it happen. And since I've blogged it, that means I can't turn back (smile again).
So, onward to my destination: my package of dreams wrapped in a bow...quickly please!
Keep Snackin',
Sami
